Honestly, feel a bit lonely here. I rather I'm not having any holiday. Just like before, keep practice on holiday, Keep rusted for something, Lake of time. It's better than doing nothing and keep on wondering and thinking for some useless things. Don't you think so?

And, do you ever just get that feel where you don't want to talk to anybody, you don't want to smile,you don't want to fake being happy, but at the same time, you don't know exactly what's wrong either?

You know what's really hard?It's when you want to express what you feel....and at last, all you can do is just smile and give up to tell anything. Argh. forget it. I have no appetite to eat and not in the mood these few days. Feel like lazy to do everything except stick with my teddy and novel. They are the best. My teddy is just like a best friend for me. or should I said, more than friend. I can't sleep without it. haha : ) so admit it, I'm still a little girl. X)

Honestly, lots of people date me out. But, maybe coz they date their friends along too. What I mean is their friends that I don't know. That make me give up to out with them. Don't you feel weird? hang out with those you don't know? Maybe you don't, but... I am who I am. I feel weird. And that make me not so comfortable actually. But, I think I can try to change that. But that is me. Everyone different right?? By the way, who is greater than me of being me then me? hahaha... what am I saying?? did you guys understand that? =X

Ah??? Is this what I wanna post today??? I forget. But my title is "the past is in the past". But, who cares with the title? haha. I'm going to sleep now. Feel so tired. Goodnight people : )